Yesterday, we went to a psychosomatic
clinic.
I didn’t want to but knew I needed to.
This means I want to see a doctor (in
general).
昨日、精神内科行ってきた
行きたなかったけどいく必要性は感じとったから
ま、つまり行ってみようと思とったってことやね
I was very anxious before going there.
I had 3 glasses of martini and ate a
lot.
A asked me if it was better to cancel
the appointment.
But I could see he wanted me to go very
much, looking at his expression.
So I said I would go.
いく前はめちゃ嫌な気分やった
不安からマルティーニ3杯飲んでごはんもいっぱい食った
Aは予約キャンセルしよかって聞いてくれたけど
めちゃ行ってほしげな顔しよったし
行かんとは言えんかった
(Later, it turned out that he thought it
was ME who decided to go to the clinic.
But it was HIM who wanted me to go from
my point of view.
And this is exactly I hate about when we
have some “decision”.)
ま「行かん」って言わんかったことで、Aは私が病院行くことを決めたって思ったらしい
でも私にしてみれば私を病院に行かせるよう促したんは彼やけど
だいたいうちらが物事を決めるときはこういうパターン
私が気を使って最終的発言をするから全て私の責任になる、あーやだやだ
Anyway, the session was so dippersful
even tough the doctor was nice.
He was okay but he had some trouble
listening and misunderstood a lot.
It was a bit depressing session.
I got 3 kinds of medicines.
とにかく、診察は最悪やった
先生はええ人やったけど
一生懸命耳を傾けてくれたけど、なんか耳が悪いんかよう話間違われた
あー疲れた
で、3つ薬をもらうことになった
Herbal medicine to ease dizziness,
headache, loss of appetite, and chill.
Anti-anxiety
Sleep-inducing drug
めまい、頭痛、食欲不振、冷えを軽減する漢方薬
抗不安薬
睡眠導入剤
The doctor says it’ll take about 2 weeks
to be able to notice the difference.
But he’s seen many cases like me and
many of them recovered.
Bipolar disorder it what the doctor
diagnosed me.
I don’t know it much but it seems a
common mental illness according to Wikipedia.
違いがわかるまでにだいたい2週間くらいはかかるとさ
でもたいていの場合みんなよくなっとるけん大丈夫って何回も言われた
私の病名は双極性障害らしい
よく分からんけど結構ある精神病みたい
Wikipediaで確認してみよう
I am exhausted right now.
Probably, the medicines I tool last
night are still affective.
And all the stuff like jet lag came up
all at once.
今も超疲れてる
多分機能飲んだ薬がまだ効いとるにちがいない
ほんで時差ボケとか全部一気に出てきたんやろ
Oh, the metaphor the doctor described my
illness was interesting.
Maybe because it was after we talked
about our trip in Sweden,
he said that my body is constantly
suffering a jet lag.
When I wake up, my body still sleeps and
when I go to sleep, it wakes up.
I have to fix it first before trying to
do anything.
私の身体状況についてのお医者さんの比喩は面白かった
うちらのスウェーデン旅行の話をしたあとやった兼かもしれんけど
今私の身体はずーっと時差ボケが起こっとる状態みたい
自分が起きても身体は寝よって自分が寝るときに身体が起きとる、みたいな
何をするにしても、まずはそれを直さないかんって
The doctor wasn’t a good listener but he
heard me.
What I wish it not to get tired so fast.
Now, I leave behind many things that I
want to just because I am worn out.
A focus on what I do or what I do not
and get worried very much.
But the doctor asked me to tell him why
I felt like coming to the clinic.
After having some counseling sessions
since January,
I came to realize that the biggest thing
that I want to get red of is tiredness.
お医者さんはよう話聞いてくれんかったけど、なーんか理解してくれたみたい
私がどうにかしたいと思っとんのは疲れやすいこと
例えば今はやりたいと思うことがあっても疲れとって何もできん
Aは私が何をして、何をせんとかいうことばっかり気にするんやけど
お医者さんは私がなんでここに来てもええかなーっていう気分になったんかを聞いた
1月からカウンセリングにも行きだして
多分自分が一番今辛いんはほんまに疲れやすいことなんやって気づいた
Let’s see how it goes.
Wish me luck!
ま、どうにかなるでしょ
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