Life is short

I don't wanna think of my death, the end of my life.

But it will come.
Not avoidable.

That's what makes everybody equal.
That's why many say we shouldn't waste time.

How many seconds
How many minites
How many hours
How many days
How many weeks
How many months
How many years
have I wasted already?

the last blue Thursday

AM4時起き 
実はと言うと3時頃から意識ある 
ねれなーい 
Got up at 4 am.
I've been awake since around 3.
CAN'T sleep!

これからの一日を思うとすでに疲・・・ 
Already worn out it I think of today, a long day...

8時から12時までバイト 
12時から16時まで別のバイト 
Part-time job from 8 to 12.
Another part-time job from 12 to 16.

今日はもしかすると一つめのバイトが長引く可能性があるので 
先週に引き続き二つめのバイトで謝らなければならないかも 
ただただ生きるためのお金が必要なだけなのに・・・ 
「説教するなら金をくれ」 
The first job maybe get longer.
I have to apologize at the second work place for coming late.
Just need money for living.

16時からは久々に上京した友とお茶 
これは癒されるでしょう 
しかも朝家を出て以降、最初の栄養摂取チャンス 
Then, I'll meet my friend from Shizuoka at 16.
Ant this will be the first chance to eat since I left home.

しかし17時にはまた学内バイト 
19時までです 
これは自らがOKした勤務交代ですが。。。 
何度も強調しますが、お金があればやらんかも 
However, a third part-time job at school from 17 to 19.
I'm not gonna work this much if I have enough money.

19時以降はフリー 
仲良しとうちで宴会をすることになっていますが 
きっと今日も話の途中で寝てしまうに違いない 
そして翌日すまなかったと連絡するんだろう 
I'm free after 19.
My friend is coming to our house for dinner.
But probably I will fall asleep during our conversation.
And I will text her that I am sorry for not being able to keep me awake.